The Journey to self care

As I'm learning what self care is after 23 years of living, I've finally learned its very important to take care of yourself if you want a successful lifestyle.

Let me tell you its not easy. I have days to where I cant even get out of bed from my depression or my chronic pain. Its caused me to lose a lot in life and so forthcoming. Each day is a battle, its a fight against your inner demons, yourself....

I tried so many different things for self care such as, counseling, medication, doctor appointments, manifesting..hz vibrancies, ect.. but nothing seemed to work and do you want to know why?

I had so much trauma, my brokenness was so broken i knew it was going to be hard to fix myself. I already lost the battle to myself but not just yet. I still had a little glimmer of hope for myself even though life kept throwing shit curve balls at me. I put myself together...

Took all of the guilt I had, surrendered that I needed help, released the negative energy I had against everything in life, and finally just realized it was start to healing and that was when i took my cleanse bath.

Cleanse bath???

What I did was light a candle( focus candle to draw in positive energy), put 5 hymalian rocks and a cup of detox tea tree bath salt and soaked in it for 30 minutes while I did a mediation to release the negative energy. I as well put the rocks on my pelvic as where my pelvic pain is and let it soak into my skin.

After my bath I felt cleansed. Don't get me wrong, my negative energy is still there but I at least let it go and I was able to finally see the big picture of what I wanted to be. I needed to fight this battle, not just for me but for the people I love and who love me too.

I now am practicing more rituals regarding meditation for manifestation and reading self care books and let me tell you something.. I don't believe in any god or anything higher but I do believe in energy and the universe and a higher power and i believe you need to feel your successful to be successful.

In my journey of self care I've learned to love myself, to forgive myself, to know its okay if people get upset, to ask for help.