My Demons

Every damn day I fight my inner demons. I can have my good days and bad days.

I suffer with depression, ptsd, and anxiety and I have been since I was 12. My demons finally caught up to me in my 20's and that's when I learned how broken I really was.

As I'm learning today self healing and self care is EXREAMLY important to someone who suffers with mental illness or even chronic pain. I don't care what you do whether if that's reading a bible, taking a cleanse bath, burning sage, going on adventures, manifestation, ect... You got to do something to start healing. All of my trauma from my past caught up to me and I finally snapped. I reached a point in my life to where I didn't realize I could get fucked fucked in life.

After my trip to the er for suicide watch and seeing how painful it was for my loved ones to see me this bad and not being able to help I knew the only person who could help me is ME. Through all of the medications, counseling, hospital trips I said enough was enough. I took a battle I gave up on, got up and used the rest of my strength to fight. My demons will not beat me.

I realized you don't need to rush things in life, you don't have to do do everything all at once. You have to break that habit.

I started off by making a daily habit of cleaning my room so that way I can feel more at ease and more organized in my life. I than started to look into manifestation and cleanse baths along with that route. I took my first cleanse bath with detox tea tree bath salts and than hymalian rocks that melted into your skin. I than put a candle on and turned off the lights and did a 30 minute meditation for cleansing trauma along with hz frequencies.

I felt more at ease! I am starting to do daily morning and night affirmations in a journal along with making a goal to myself that I will work my business and try to enjoy the moment and not rushing it.

It wont be easy, but babe it will be so worth it.

Its okay to take a breather, never okay to give up on your battles.